Four Months

Well it has been too long since my last post. Needless to say we have been VERY busy. Thanksgiving Christmas and New Years have past and I honestly cannot believe the end of February is approaching!

Unfortunately with the holidays and new baby in our lives my crafty and creative posts and Projects are on hold...but they will resume I promise.

Well our amazing baby girl is growing at a rapid rate...as all children do. She is now 14 pounds and almost 24 inches long. She loooooves her bottle and lets you know (very loudly) when it is time to eat. the holidays were a blast and it was fun showing her off to everyone.

 

 

She is such a joy to be around...developing her personality and always jumping in on conversation.

 

It really is shocking to me that in just a few months she has grown from this

 

To this...

 

Time really does fly by.... Here she is at one month...

Here she is at four months...

 

So fun to compare pictures.

 

Aleah brings joy, fun and entertainment to our lives everyday. It is such a joy being a Mom and I sometimes still cannot believe that I am a Mom. We are so blessed with such an amazing little girl. As I sit and write this...I am still a little sweaty from running (trying to get my body back) have not brushed my teeth, and probably won't get a shower till around 3pm...I have to say my daily routine has done a complete 180 since Aleah was born. It has taken time and a lot of planning to adjust to her schedule...yes I said HER schedule....she pretty much rules the house. I feel like I have gotten into a good routine with her, and she has helped me do that by sleeping through the night.

 

More than the adjustment to daily routine is the adjustment that we (women) go through when you become a Mommy for the first time. First it is recovery, sleepless nights, worry, questions, emotions...and the list goes on. As time has gone by it becomes less about adjusting to routine and for me it has been more about adjusting to my new identity and the yearning to hang on to the "old" me. Because I work from home 90% of the time, there are many days when I don't even leave the house (so thankful I have a job that allows me to this thought) and when I do, it is an exciting trip to Walmart to get groceries. Sometimes I feel the world is flying past me as I live in pajamas and work out clothes..seeing the world through the eyes of Pinterest and Facebook. Without those I would only know the latest fashions by what I see on the rack at Walmart and the Today Show haha...sad I know.  Sometimes I look at all of the clothes in my closet and wonder why I have so many when I really only get ready once or twice a week. Then my mind thinks of other things...Why do I have all this great makeup? hair products? Jewelry? Shoes? Its almost like looking at an archive of what my life used to be. Then there is the actual fitting into some of those clothes...some of them will be heading to donation...my body just isn't the same. All of us women struggle with that...well maybe someday I will get back into those jeans...and maybe I will. Only time will tell. As all of these things run through my mind...it can sound pretty depressing...like who am I? Do I have a purpose? Am I just Aleah's Mom? Jason's wife? A house cleaner? Butt wiper? Lunch maker? Cooker? and the list goes on again...and that's when I realize that YES that is exactly what I am and it matters! 

 

I was reminded in a song this week by Steven Curtis Chapman...here are some of the lyrics

 

Well let me remind you, it all matters just as long
As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you,
Cause he made you,
To do
Every little thing that you do
To bring a smile to His face
Tell the story of grace
With every move that you make
And every little thing you do

 

It was exactly what I needed to hear when I was starting to feel like everything I do really isn't important. So if I reword what I wrote above it should sound like this.....

 

Who am I? I am the proud mother of a beautiful girl named Aleah. I have a wonderful husband and I am happy to be his wife. I have a nice clean home. I get to wipe Aleah's cute butt everyday because she is mine! I am honored to cook for someone who likes my food and devours every bite...and I am so blessed that I have been given all of this so undeserving.

 

Change is hard for everyone....and although I have days, like the above whining may sound to some of you...I take one look at my two favorite bald people (see below) and know that I make them complete just like they complete me, here in this little corner of the world.

The old me...is exactly that...OLD NEWS!

We all have selfish moments here and there...

I am personally learning to love every bit of this new normal and new jean size :)